Monday, October 06, 2014
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Ok after reading this is kind of adds a potential interesting twist to the end as this part is never resolved. Now I haven't had a chance to do any fact checking on the statements of prophecy yet but a good quick read anyway.
Monday, April 07, 2014
Here is the updates that I guess have been missing: Youngest started crawling out of his crib and last Friday didn't get to sleep until after 23:00 because he kept doing it thinking it was fun. Our solution to that was to convert his crib to a low bed for him to sleep in. Problem solved no more kids falling out of cribs. Now if he would just stay in bed that would be also awesome.
I have come to the conclusion that I'm no longer engaged at work and really just feel like a robot going through the motions. I don't care about the company as a whole or anything else really I just do my job and make people happy. I am hating the commute more and more with each passing month so I will be happy when I find something new .... If I ever find a job that I might like. I'm getting tired of only finding first level support positions available and nothing else. Just means when I start looking it just gets more depressing.
I think because of the the above two reasons I can honestly say I fall under "clinical exhaustion". Not like I ever had a great memory but now I can't remember anything past a few days ago and even then it is iffy. After getting a good night's sleep I'm still tired and have a hard time functioning three or four hours after I wake up, might be part of the reason for my lack of engagement at work. I'm doing my best trying to get to bed early but it is hard when Youngest is always up causing problems.
I need a new job. This one is slowly draining me and filling me with nothing. So for the past three years while I have been job hunting I have had a single interview and after that I found out that they were shelving the job because they wanted someone more junior for the role. I felt sorry for everyone that took part. Hiring someone is a long process and that wasted everyone's time. So to those that get rejection letters for your applications feel happy that someone even notices you because for the past three years no one really has for me.
Friday, February 14, 2014
Things changed .... A lot of things changed. I realized after being off for a little over 6 months that this job was killing me more than I realized. I was looking for a new job while I was off as I did have fragments of time to look while youngest was sleeping but nothing ever came to light. I found I could either try to be a VP, not likely with my resume, or I could get an entry level position at a new place of work, not likely because my salary would be less than half of what I make now.
The beginning of this week marks my fourth year with this company. It marks three years of me trying to get out for something closer to home and failing. It almost marks, three weeks away now, my one year return from leave. I feel that all my work over the past three years and only fetching one interview means I'm staying here for life.
A life that is slowly killing me in my 90 minute commute. A life that is wearing me down faster than I should have to accept. A life where even though I'm damn good at my job no one around seems to see value in my work.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Now since my last posting naturally a whole lot of stuff has happened. Let's see I have had a second son born. Bought a new car, a Volkswagen Jetta TDI, which I'm still in love driving. Found a new game to play on ArmorGames called Wartune.
In Wartune I have found a friendly guild with great people. Those friends mentioned above would be Guild Master Arcanu and Kefir!
I'm really not sure what to say beyond that as I'm still having my head as a mess of thoughts. Anyway for those friends of years past if you are still reading I hope you will continue coming back as I should now be posting a little more often.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
So about a month ago where Baby E goes for day care there was a confirmed diagnosis of Whooping Cough. Last week I came down with a severe cough and feared that it might be whooping so I have been working from home. Well I just got back from the doctor's and it is her opinion that it is just an acute case of bronchitis that I had poorly timed with the possible onset of whooping. Well with a clean bill of health I will be headed back to the office tomorrow and reconnect with the people there.
For as great as it was to be able to work from home, sleep in an extra two hours, 30 second commute vs. 75 minutes, PJ ware vs. business casual, there are definitely aspects of actually being in the office that I miss. One of those things is the interaction with other people, especially those I'm trying to help. Somewhere along the way it all kind of gets disjointed and work becomes work and not the fun that it is in the office. Well tomorrow at lunch I get to pick up some drugs for myself and baby, same thing actually just different dosages, over lunch and try to have a nice and relaxing day.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
(Some days I think I'm just too funny)
Seriously a good sedan is what I'm looking for and if it drinks more than 6.0L/100KM I'm not interested. I'm thinking the Honda Civic Hybrid or the VW Jetta TDI any other suggestions? Companies I should look at or some that I should avoid?